Collision Course


so erratic

Tick by tick

and mite by mite


now contrasting

in the swirling mountain light


cheap aesthetic

you cannot break your own resolve


swift corrupting

slow this blackened moon's revolve

How can we give up what we love for what is right?

It’s a question many ask themselves (not generally in so many words) and very few seem to answer. Jesus said:  Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me” -Matthew 10:37. He also said: “In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.” Luke 14:33. Almost all of us love something. We love our family, our friends, and some real love may even seep into how we feel about our belongings.

Now when I talk about love, I am talking about the selfless, beautiful thing that love really is, not the ephemeral cheap desire that our culture makes it. We are meant to give up our selfish desire and greed regardless. But what about when God asks us to give up those people or things we really love? What happens when God asks us to accept the death of a loved one, or move away from friends? What do we do when God calls us to sell the house or give away the car? What do we say when our sons turn prodigal and our daughters turn cold? Where do we run when our dreams escape us and our futures aren’t what we had in mind?

What do we do when God calls us to give up what we love for what is right?

I found myself thinking (more like screaming) about this recently.

The problem comes in giving up something actually good for something better. It isn’t quite as hard to give up something truly bad for something good. But good for better, that’s a struggle. To add a hiccup to the equation, we are bound to have selfish feelings mixed up with the righteous ones. If we didn’t we would be okay. But since our desires put our interests into the equation along with our working for the loved thing’s best interest, we can’t let go because we don’t want to.

We don’t want to, and most of the time we can’t even see why we should. Our temporal eyes can rarely understand why God asks to give up things. If only we could peek into the future and see how surrender of each relationship or good situation will bring manifold blessings. If only we saw the end of our corrupted clutching as we tried to hold people too close for our own good.


In the end I think we only have one hope in this area: Love more.

Love God more, and in seeking him become more desirous of his will and plan.

Love others more and let God’s love for them in you allow you to do what is actually best for them and for you.

We may be called to give up what and who we love, but do not give up loving and being loved by the one who is love.


With Cacoethes Scribendi,

The Indefinable Emotion









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