The freedom of lunacy Verse 1 Sometimes ashes stir into a fire Sometimes fools discover faint desire Sometimes callings come in heavens's light Sometimes they're more like thieves at night But when callings come they flare They beg, they plead, they drive, they dare For lunacy is sanity, when lunacy is true our sanity is comfort, the world's idyllic you But to the world our hope is folly and greatest grace a trick For when calling's come a calling It's comfort that they prick Chorus So call this crazy if you will Call it mad, deranged, insane I'll take all of your labels I'll embrace all of your names But I can't pander to your worries I can't live a life that's tame For there's a freedom in lunacy and the freedom is this: When the call of God finds you The calling persists Verse 2 What the world desires is knowledge of the most important kind of who we are and can be and of the author of design But when they find it most will run Back to comfort back to home To leave behind what could be To leave beind what they could know For the path of Christ is difficult Fullof sacrifice and harm He offers you his peace Then puts his cross into your arms and lunacy births collision When earth and heaven meet For he called me to the water and I offered him my feet Verse 3 I know this journey might bring danger in struggle and in strife I may fall into pain in this season of life I may hunger or thirst I may grow weary or worse Be beaten or mugger, be kidnaped or drugged By beast or man harmed By disease be disarmed By worry be shaken With doubts become take With toil and derision soon resent my decision But God's lunacy has me and for that lunacy's sake With God I go forward with every step that I take For the callings are stirring, and God's callings aren't trite For the fields are now white and the harvest is ripe
Ever since I can remember I have had a desperate tug at the back of my soul. A tug begging for great deeds and desperate measures. Now many of you will say “of course, everyone wants to be heroic and famous.” Yet I think it is something else I find in myself, (though I do not deny the universality of such a feeling in different degrees). It is a desire I think, to be able to mock fear, and be filled with the passion of doing something worth doing. It is like the feeling one has when they are up high to jump off suddenly, and leave all of ones companions almost in awe at the fact. In the desire for that jump you do not desire death or pain, simply the thrill of the fall, knowing even its dangers could not keep you back. It is a desire to be seen as ludicrous for daring to do what no one else does, and what most cannot do.
Such a lifestyle I think has been set upon me by God, and is called for in others. The callings of Christ always were a sort of insanity, driving men to deeds of beauty and love, before unknown. We are called to run after our master with reckless abandon, forsaking the pleasures of this earth, and serving only the Lord, even unto death.
But instead, most of the Christian world is wrapped deep in the blanket of comforting pleasure, barely daring to peak its head out of the covers for fear of the cold. We are just as sensual and selfish in fulfilling our desires, and we make little feeble attempt to stem the tide of dissipations which consume our time, money, minds, and love. The direct idolatry of these things is a subject for another time, but for now we will focus on the fact that this weak fealty to worldly treasures weakens our ability to live bravely and courageously. slowly our pleasure draws us away from the callings of God (as uncomfortable as they are) and eventually we stop hearing the callings at all.
If we are still among the lucky few to hear the callings,and our comforts have not yet drowned it out completely, we are usually to afraid to act on them.
I have been from a very early age a scared person. Indeed I have counted it as one of my chief weaknesses for a long time. I knew countless nights of terror as a young child and I have known many social and spiritual failings due to it as a young adult.
Yet consistently the only fix i have heard for the malady is to simply act in spite of fear. Honestly i’m just sick of it. Do you know who I hear this fix from? People who aren’t afraid! Do you ever hear people giving the same advice for other sins? Not usually. I personally have never heard, “Oh I have a drinking problem, can you help me?”, with the other person replying, “Well have you tried stopping?”. Neither have I witnessed this conversation: “I am really struggling with pride, what do you suggest?” The other person matter of factly states “Well the main thing is to be humble.”
So why is this illogical conversation so prevalent in the realm of dealing with fear!
Now fear is still something I am working through in my life but here are a few things I have found to ACTUALLY help:
Firstly, when you feel afraid, pray. Prayer sets your mind on the power higher than yourself and the protection of christ. Specifically rebuke the spirit of fear in the name of christ, if that is what is afflicting you and your faith is in Christ, you will gain victory over it.
Second, set your mind on the truth. Fear is at its essence, a lie. If you are walking down an alley and your afraid of the dark and getting mugged, remind yourself that God is your protection, and that the worst thing that could happen is you die, and then go to heaven. Death is one of our greatest fears but it’s actually logically not something christians need to fear. We have our hope in an eternity with Christ.
Lastly, You may not be able to deal with fear till another spirit or sin is broken off of your life. For me, I found absolutely no victory over fear until I dealt with the spirit of shame. It was as if the spirits were linked, shame keeping fear from any harm. But once shame left, I found that as I tested the things I was afraid of again, fear dissipated in front of me, as if it had been an illusory mist.
Working through fear and and walking out of a comfortable existence to do it sucks. Plainly it is awful, and most people do not care enough. But pray that God gives you the strength to fight. No real life of victory can be lived spiritually until these issues are taken care of. It is worth the fight.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”
-2 Timothy 1:7
With Cacoethes Scribendi,
The Indefinable Emotion